man my head hurts.. sigh..
so a lot has happened! Michael moved out.. and he was all excited to move in with Thumper, than a week later (and I literally mean a week) Thumper and Dina (his wife) went crazy on MIchael, threatening him and telling him that the had to listen to whatever they said and had to do everything they said.. so stupid!!
so Michael said he was going to move out and move in with grandma, which would have been awesome, but for some reason Grandma said no, even though she has been telling everyone else that she would say yes. I think Christina is right, though, when she said it was mostly likely because Brian was visiting at the time, and she wanted an extra room for when he visited..
sooo yeah.. that was really annoying and everyone got upset about it.. but now Michael has to rise up and fix this problem himself, and hopefully become more of a man out of it..
the thing that really upset me was the he called me about Ty, because he thought he found a place but they wouldn't take dogs, and he wanted me to help him try and find a place for Ty.. and he was almost crying which really upset me because I wish there was more I could do.. sigh..
but he asked if Andrew and I would take Ty, and I just couldn't do it.. I don't want a dog in the house, I don't want to have to take care of a dog and I don't want the dog smell.. that place is just too small for a big dog, at least in my opinion.. so I felt horrible saying it (no I didn't tell him all that, but I did tell him we could not afford another animal, which is also true) but I just felt bad because I couldn't help him more..
luckily I was able to find someone who really wanted Ty, but it looks like Michael is going to find a better place with better people.. I hope it works out because he is really excited and the people he is going to move in with are nicer people with better values and who will actually be nice to Michael.. I just felt really bad because it did seem like no one wanted to help him in the family, but we are trying to help him to grow up and be on his own.. he is 27, he really needs to learn how to do this, how to learn from his mistakes and how to grow from them, not fold over and give up because you ran into one..
so we will see what happens! I hope this is a learning and good life experience for him!
on another note, still here at BMS, still as bored as usual.. my 90 days is up in October, so hopefully they will make my permanent then hopefully I will get a raise of some sort.. that would just be wonderful.. heh here's to hoping! plus, I do love reading, but I am getting tired of just sitting here reading all day.. it gives me a headache first of all.. second of all I just would like to do something different.. and if they made me permanent they would teach me everything with the system, the phones, everything.. so that would be nice!
and another note, Andrew and I are going to stay at the apartment! we just signed the lease and it is a 18 month lease, but they are not raising the rent at all!! so yay for that!! XD I love that apartment now and it looks so nice with all our stuff spread out and so much room everywhere! I just hope I will be able to afford it.. I think if they do actually give me a raise I will be OK.. plus I am going to Chase today to try and refinance my car, so if that works out I will have a little more money as well..
I think we will be OK, money will just be a little tight.. but right now I am OK with that because I really did not want to move and it really does look nice now all organized.. and we have our own little library/office/ cat room now.. it is great! so we will see how it goes! I am mostly just kinda freaking out about the holidays cuz I love buying people gifts and now I won't be able to buy them as many gifts and I thought I would be able to.. but oh well! one gift is enough.. =)
um.. I am applying to UCI soon! I have almost everything put together so I can send the complete application off.. I even have 3 letters of recomendation! Two have already been written! Now I just need to get all my transcripts and then finish my autobiographical essay, and then I am all done! man I hope I get in.. I have not wanted anything this badly in a while.. and it is my dream.. soo it has to happen! we will see! I am trying really hard to perfect that writing samples I am sending in.. and I am hoping since I am unique in my love for the orror genre, they will see that uniqueness and accept me.. ha man I want this so badly!!
anyways.. I am super tired today.. I woke up a bit early to take a shower and I am kinda regretting it.. ha never again! this is why I shower at night.. heh things with Andrew and I are also going very well.. our two and a half year is Oct 8th, so that is exciting! he says he wants to take me out somewhere, so that is nice of him.. but hopefully it is not expensive as we can't really afford anything extra!
alright this is long.. time for me to go read more.. heh it is almost my lunch time anyways and I am hungry.. yay food!

well, it is official! I am going to apply to UCI within the new few months! Fun stuff! I finally have three teachers who are going to give me letters of rec.. now I just have to start the application and pray that I get in! I so desperately want to get in.. man it is the only school I have watned to go to for Grad school for the longest time.. I hope they see something in my writing that makes them want me to be there.. I hope they see how much I love to write and how much I want to be a writer.. I am just having issues now putting all this on paper.. I think it is because I am so nervous about it, and now i have a deadline.. eek! but at least I am finally going for it!
bah and Michael is moving out early.. next week is his last week actually, which is crazy.. Andrew freaked out at first since he is moving out early, but I told Andrew this was what we were hoping for so you always have to be careful what you wish for!
I am happy and sad at the same time.. I am going to miss spending so much time with Michael.. when he doesn't live at home or with someone in the family, he never actually hangs out with the family, so we shall see.. maybe this time will be different since apparently he has grown up.. too bad he is moving in with thumper.. I have bad feelings about this, but who knows.. it just might work out for him.. I hope it does. He really needs to be out on his own and to do things on his own and he has grown up a little bit since the year he has been with Andrew and I, so I jut hope that it is enough to keep him going through all this! so we shall see what happens
Andrew and I are going to have the place to ourselves for a month! which is cool, but also means that we have to pay the rent by ourselves for October.. but I am hoping that we will be able to pay it and still have money leftover, so when the time comes for the lease to be up, we will decide to stay there. I really want to stay.. I know it would be so much better for us if we had a two bedroom apt.. we just have so much stuff, it would make more sense.. Plus Andrew is getting a raise, so with that it might help us.. and hopefully I can go on permantly here and then I will get a raise too.. so we shall see! I just know after we have this two bedroom, even if it is only for a month and a half, it will be hard for us to go back to a one bedroom.. so much space! it would be awesome if we could keep it.. we would just have to live frugily for a while.. I don't think I spelled that right.. ha oh well..
but anyways! we will see.. we are supposed to be getting a letter soon about our renewing options, so maybe they will lower the rent a little or something if we renew for another year.. I may just refinance my car.. I know it is going to suck paying for another 5 years, but my payments would probably be cut in half! I might have to anyways, because I am pretty sure my loan matures next year, but I don't think I will have it paid off by next year, which would make the interest go up like crazy.. so I may just have to refinance to avoid that, and then any extra money I have, I will just put as a principle payment on the car!
so we will see.. I just really want to stay there and not have to move again.. i hate moving! and just all that space with just the two of us.. awesome!
so anywys.. again we shall see what happens!
but I am going to go now.. see if the UCI app is up yet, or if they are selling comic con tickets so I can do both! =)
laters!