I am fat and gross.. blerg..

also, I am tired of making all the effort with most of my friends.. none of them really seem to make an effort to keep in contact with me.. why does is always have to be me.. x.x

also.. Andrew might have TB.. wtf? where did that even come from?! and it's not like I can get easily tested for it without insurance.. bah.. why would this even happen.. x.x stupid everything!

I may have lost 7 pages of my story.. omg that would just be awful.. I really hope I didn't.. I might cry if I did.. I had a whole nother chapter.. ugh!!!
I will check when I get home today and see.. it is supposed to be 41 pages, but here it is only 34.. that is really scary... x.x
and I have a really bad ache in my neck and I don't know why.. probly from my pillow.. but man it hurts so much.. =(
on a good note, my application as been sent and delivered! yay! now just to wait for Bonca's letter of rec, and then to see if I get in or not.. here's to hoping!

well, the time has now come to finally send in my full application to UCI! yay! I am sending it today, so hopefully they will get it soon! And I asked Dr. Bonca to have the letter by the end of this week. he is the last thing I need.. I asked to have it done by Nov 5th, even sent him three emails and left a voicemail, but he still hasn't done it.. so I really hope he at least gets it done by the end of the week! Then, I play the waiting game.. fun stuff.. ha I hope I get in.. =/

let's see.. everything else is going pretty good! Vegas was fun, though I got mad at Andrew at one point because he kept make comments about girls physical appearance, and even once said something like "why don't you get do that?" referring to Hooters girls getting boob jobs.. So I was just like.. wtf man? Sometimes I can't tell when he is joking and when he is not.. sigh.. oh well.. Other than that, we got to see awesome white tigers (man I want one soo badly!!!) and a cool cougar and cool lions! lots of animals.. we got to feed peacocks and ostriches. um.. then we went to the hoover dam, which was cool because I had never been there! It was really high up and just beautiful! And even though I don't drink, I like shot glasses, so I got three.. ha

Christmas is coming up, which I am excited about! yay for Xmas! I just hope they make me permanent by then so I will have money to buy more gifts.. I am so poor right now.. sigh.. and each week Charlene tells me she is going to give me my review to make me permanent, but she still hasn't, so I am going to keep asking her, at least once a week, until it gets done.. it was slow yesterday and it is slow today, the review should only take like 5 mins, so why can't she just make time for it? bah.. this is dumb.. it also makes me mad because they keep asking me to learn more and more stuff and to keep doing more and more, and yet I am still a temp, so wtf.. at least make me permanent so I am getting paid for what I am doing.. at least I still have a lot of down time.. that is something I guess.. heh

bah I am getting annoyed with Nina.. she keeps saying that she misses me and we should hang out, and yet she never makes time for me.. yet she does things all the time with all her other friends.. I dunno, I just don't get it.. why is it so hard to make time for me if you are always hanging out with your other friends? aren't I supposed to be your best friend? I am kinda getting sick of it and I might confront her about it soon.. because she still expects me to go to her son's bday party, which is fine, but I am always the one making time for all my friends, why can't she make time for me if she is always going out with other ppl.. I don't get it.. sigh.. well we will see.. I might just send her a message about it or something, see what she says.. even when I call or text her she doesn't respond, so we will see..
she does have a vacation coming up, so we will see if she tries to actually hang out..

what else? I dunno.. I guess that is it! Man I really want an Arby's sammich.. I have been craving them so much lately! they are so delicious.. heh
anyways.. time to go and finish the manual I am making.. laters!