man my head hurts.. sigh..
so a lot has happened! Michael moved out.. and he was all excited to move in with Thumper, than a week later (and I literally mean a week) Thumper and Dina (his wife) went crazy on MIchael, threatening him and telling him that the had to listen to whatever they said and had to do everything they said.. so stupid!!
so Michael said he was going to move out and move in with grandma, which would have been awesome, but for some reason Grandma said no, even though she has been telling everyone else that she would say yes. I think Christina is right, though, when she said it was mostly likely because Brian was visiting at the time, and she wanted an extra room for when he visited..
sooo yeah.. that was really annoying and everyone got upset about it.. but now Michael has to rise up and fix this problem himself, and hopefully become more of a man out of it..
the thing that really upset me was the he called me about Ty, because he thought he found a place but they wouldn't take dogs, and he wanted me to help him try and find a place for Ty.. and he was almost crying which really upset me because I wish there was more I could do.. sigh..
but he asked if Andrew and I would take Ty, and I just couldn't do it.. I don't want a dog in the house, I don't want to have to take care of a dog and I don't want the dog smell.. that place is just too small for a big dog, at least in my opinion.. so I felt horrible saying it (no I didn't tell him all that, but I did tell him we could not afford another animal, which is also true) but I just felt bad because I couldn't help him more..
luckily I was able to find someone who really wanted Ty, but it looks like Michael is going to find a better place with better people.. I hope it works out because he is really excited and the people he is going to move in with are nicer people with better values and who will actually be nice to Michael.. I just felt really bad because it did seem like no one wanted to help him in the family, but we are trying to help him to grow up and be on his own.. he is 27, he really needs to learn how to do this, how to learn from his mistakes and how to grow from them, not fold over and give up because you ran into one..
so we will see what happens! I hope this is a learning and good life experience for him!
on another note, still here at BMS, still as bored as usual.. my 90 days is up in October, so hopefully they will make my permanent then hopefully I will get a raise of some sort.. that would just be wonderful.. heh here's to hoping! plus, I do love reading, but I am getting tired of just sitting here reading all day.. it gives me a headache first of all.. second of all I just would like to do something different.. and if they made me permanent they would teach me everything with the system, the phones, everything.. so that would be nice!
and another note, Andrew and I are going to stay at the apartment! we just signed the lease and it is a 18 month lease, but they are not raising the rent at all!! so yay for that!! XD I love that apartment now and it looks so nice with all our stuff spread out and so much room everywhere! I just hope I will be able to afford it.. I think if they do actually give me a raise I will be OK.. plus I am going to Chase today to try and refinance my car, so if that works out I will have a little more money as well..
I think we will be OK, money will just be a little tight.. but right now I am OK with that because I really did not want to move and it really does look nice now all organized.. and we have our own little library/office/ cat room now.. it is great! so we will see how it goes! I am mostly just kinda freaking out about the holidays cuz I love buying people gifts and now I won't be able to buy them as many gifts and I thought I would be able to.. but oh well! one gift is enough.. =)
um.. I am applying to UCI soon! I have almost everything put together so I can send the complete application off.. I even have 3 letters of recomendation! Two have already been written! Now I just need to get all my transcripts and then finish my autobiographical essay, and then I am all done! man I hope I get in.. I have not wanted anything this badly in a while.. and it is my dream.. soo it has to happen! we will see! I am trying really hard to perfect that writing samples I am sending in.. and I am hoping since I am unique in my love for the orror genre, they will see that uniqueness and accept me.. ha man I want this so badly!!
anyways.. I am super tired today.. I woke up a bit early to take a shower and I am kinda regretting it.. ha never again! this is why I shower at night.. heh things with Andrew and I are also going very well.. our two and a half year is Oct 8th, so that is exciting! he says he wants to take me out somewhere, so that is nice of him.. but hopefully it is not expensive as we can't really afford anything extra!
alright this is long.. time for me to go read more.. heh it is almost my lunch time anyways and I am hungry.. yay food!

well, it is official! I am going to apply to UCI within the new few months! Fun stuff! I finally have three teachers who are going to give me letters of rec.. now I just have to start the application and pray that I get in! I so desperately want to get in.. man it is the only school I have watned to go to for Grad school for the longest time.. I hope they see something in my writing that makes them want me to be there.. I hope they see how much I love to write and how much I want to be a writer.. I am just having issues now putting all this on paper.. I think it is because I am so nervous about it, and now i have a deadline.. eek! but at least I am finally going for it!
bah and Michael is moving out early.. next week is his last week actually, which is crazy.. Andrew freaked out at first since he is moving out early, but I told Andrew this was what we were hoping for so you always have to be careful what you wish for!
I am happy and sad at the same time.. I am going to miss spending so much time with Michael.. when he doesn't live at home or with someone in the family, he never actually hangs out with the family, so we shall see.. maybe this time will be different since apparently he has grown up.. too bad he is moving in with thumper.. I have bad feelings about this, but who knows.. it just might work out for him.. I hope it does. He really needs to be out on his own and to do things on his own and he has grown up a little bit since the year he has been with Andrew and I, so I jut hope that it is enough to keep him going through all this! so we shall see what happens
Andrew and I are going to have the place to ourselves for a month! which is cool, but also means that we have to pay the rent by ourselves for October.. but I am hoping that we will be able to pay it and still have money leftover, so when the time comes for the lease to be up, we will decide to stay there. I really want to stay.. I know it would be so much better for us if we had a two bedroom apt.. we just have so much stuff, it would make more sense.. Plus Andrew is getting a raise, so with that it might help us.. and hopefully I can go on permantly here and then I will get a raise too.. so we shall see! I just know after we have this two bedroom, even if it is only for a month and a half, it will be hard for us to go back to a one bedroom.. so much space! it would be awesome if we could keep it.. we would just have to live frugily for a while.. I don't think I spelled that right.. ha oh well..
but anyways! we will see.. we are supposed to be getting a letter soon about our renewing options, so maybe they will lower the rent a little or something if we renew for another year.. I may just refinance my car.. I know it is going to suck paying for another 5 years, but my payments would probably be cut in half! I might have to anyways, because I am pretty sure my loan matures next year, but I don't think I will have it paid off by next year, which would make the interest go up like crazy.. so I may just have to refinance to avoid that, and then any extra money I have, I will just put as a principle payment on the car!
so we will see.. I just really want to stay there and not have to move again.. i hate moving! and just all that space with just the two of us.. awesome!
so anywys.. again we shall see what happens!
but I am going to go now.. see if the UCI app is up yet, or if they are selling comic con tickets so I can do both! =)
laters!

omg this is so stupid.. at my work, they want me to check wires every two hours.. but I don't even have access to the system! so stupid! but they still want me to do it and email the guy if they have any wires.. so now every two hours I have to bother someone else and ask them to check the wires for me and to give me an pertinet information.. so I can email the guy.. like wtf? why can't they just do it.. they are busy enough so either get me access, give me someones user name and password, or just tell someone else to do it so I am not bothering them.. ugh so stupid!
I also found out that everyone else here hates their job.. but it is the people who actually hafta talk to customers that say that, so I can understand.. heh
so far I still like it and it is easy except for this crap they want me to do now.. and I get a whole lot of reading done! there was one guy that made me angry cuz he was bring super patronizing to me, but oh well.. at least it is a job and I get paid well and I can almost do what I want as long as I get the emails responded to..
it is just annoying because no one else looks in the inbox anymore and it would be nice sometimes to get a little help, but I guess I have so much free time anyways, it would just create more free time for me.. so oh well!
um.. I finally got a call from my old teacher at fullerton and she said she can get me a letter of rec! so yay for that.. now is the time to kinda crack down and start writing stuff and editing stuff to send to them. she also said she would edit part of my novel that I am going to send in to help me perfect it, so yay for her! she is pretty awesome! she was a little skeptical though because UCI is really hard to get into and it is one of the top 5 schools for the creative writing program and I don't have any back up schools and she always saw me more as a scholar, not a writer..
but it is the only school I want to go too and if I don't get in, then I will start researching other schools and see if anyone else has a program I want to get into.. Fullerton doesn't, so we shall see!
alright.. my head hurts.. it has been for like two days now.. =P though that is mostly likely cuz I have been reading so much lately, but that's OK.. I am finally getting through all the books I have been meaning to read for months now! but I am going to go.. time to start readin.. ha

hello again..
I have been meaning to write in here for a while, but either I am too lazy or I forget.. ha
The job is still going good! It is still somewhat boring, but they really do seem to like me and they want me to learn more stuff and do more stuff, so at least there is that!
Michael really pissed me off a few weeks ago, because Andrew and I were sitting in our room watching tv, and Michael was just at work, so he came home and after a little while Andrew and I decided to go out to the living room so we could watch tv with Michael and we could all hang out together. so we go out there and Michael gets all pissed off! and he is like, "I feel like you guys do this on purpose!" and both of us are like.. uhh do what on purpose? and then he says "well right when I want to sit down and play video games you guys come out here and watch tv!" and both of us again are like, um.. we didn't know you wanted to play video games! you need to tell us these things and not assume we know everything you want to do!
then, about a week ago, Tye ate all the cat food again, so I punish Tye and tell Michael about it and get really mad of course because Michael isn't going to pay for that, we have to keep paying for it.. and then I saw I am sorry I got so mad it is just really frustrating that he knows better but he keeps eating the cat food.. and michael has the argument that he is like a kid, he will still do it no matter what, so I tell him that he shouldve learned by now not to, no matter what! and then Michael starts saying how I shouldn't punish Tye about it, that Doug pees in his closet all the time and he never says anyhing... both Andrew and I are like, wtf? why wouldn't you tell us? why wouldn't you punish doug about it? but I have never smelled pee in his room and I think he was just making that up to try and make it about him or to turn it around on us.. so dumb! ugh!
so yeah.. I know it is kinda mean, but I am putting my foot down on him moving out.. I can't handle another year with this and with Tye.. no more.. and Andrew would not stay if Michael stayed and I need to focus on my relationship with Andrew as well.. so blah.. it sucks, but it has to happen.. Michael needs to grow up and learn to do things on his own damnit! no more hand outs!

anyways.. I am hungry.. ha I guess other employees really hate it here.. weird.. probably the customers though, like usual.. because people are stupid. ha oh well at least I still like it! man i am hungry though! alright I am gonna go now.. time to go potty and read more about the new batman game! woo!

hello again! I know it has been a while, but guess what? I have a new job finally! yay! so far it is really boring but that is OK because it is stress free and only about 5 mins away from my house.. how much better can that get? I mean.. seriously? I really do not feel like going into an explanation as to what I do, but I work with the trustees at BMS.. =) that is enough.. heh I have explained it to many times to so many different people, that I just don't wanna do it on here.. I know what I do and I don't need to read about it later!
but yeah it is nice.. and I get paid really well and every week! in fact, I get paid tomorrow, so what I did was upgrade my ipod finally! so now I have a 32 gig and I can finally put all the songs and apps I want on it! woo! since this check tomorrow is just an extra check, I decided to splurge on myself for once.. I hardly ever do that and the last time was 2 years ago (not counting clothes and groceries.. or putting stuff on a credit card. heh) so I think it was about time!
and now with every paycheck, if I can afford it, I am going to put 100 dollars aside and then at the end of the month, I am going to make a 400 dollar payment on my joint card with Andrew.. that should help to pay it off pretty quickly.. lets see.. we owe about 4700.. divided by 400.. um.. that is about 11 payments.. and if I can do more, that will have it paid off even faster! so yay! then I can work on my other card.. and, my car will be paid off in a year, so I can make even larger payments! awesome! heh if I have any extra, I am going to try and start making principle only payments on my car so that I can maybe pay that off faster.. or maybe in oct, when I get 5 checks instead of 4, I will take that extra check and just put all or most of it on the car.. that is like, 2 months worth of payments right there all on principle.. that would be sweet!
so we will see! with michael moving out, I may not even be able to do any of this because I wil be paying more in rent, but who knows.. I can at least make like 200 dollar payments instead of only 100 or something.. =) but again it does all depend cuz Michael might be moving out sooner than we thought, so we may have to pay more in rent.. that would be nice for Andrew and I to have our own place tho.. but who knows! Michael needs to do this, I just hope he will be OK on his own unlike last time.. sigh..
anyways! I should go and get back to work or something.. heh

So tuesday is my birthday.. yay! I had a birthday weekend though, so on my actual birthday I don't think much is going to happen.. heh but that is OK! I had a great party yesterday with lots of people and today was a family gathering.. we went to chilis and then to my parents house for cake and gifts..
but yesterday there were about 20 people total that come and went.. we were down by the grill and we had lots of chips and dips and other snacks, then Andrew and Michael bbq'd the hamburgers, hotdogs and hot links.. they were really good! And it was just so much fun.. I was constantly walking around, making sure I was talking to everyone and that everyone was having a good time.. I hope I didn't ignore anyone too much, but I tried to sit down and talk with everyone a few different times.. it seemed like everyone had a good time though, so yay for that! I got an Orchid! Jason and Rachel got it for me.. it is awesome! And I got a target and starbucks gift card, a cool wind chime, DARIA!!!!!!!!! some movie tickets.. and.. oh yeah! A really cool statue of a girl holding some cats.. it is really pretty! yay for cats! heh
and then today was my family! I love Chilis, so I was happy to go there.. then my mom made me an angel food cake with whipped cream and strawberries and all sorts of stuff.. it was delicious! Oh and Andrew got me an ice cream cake and it had a Batman toy on it.. awesome.. haha it is a really yummy cake too! And it had my name on it.. XD
let's see.. and then today, for gifts.. I got a 60 gift card to Amazon, 50 for target.. 50 dollar check.. 35 in cash, a 25 gas card, 50 for h&m, and 35 in cash.. and a hands free electronic can opener.. and more movie tickets! So I got lots of cool stuff! All in all a great birthday! Andrew said he is going to try and take me out on my actual bday, but I dunno. he has already spent a lot of money so I don't know that he will have enough money, so no big deal! =)

alright that is all for now! what a great weekend.. yay for birthdays! heh

I feel all blah lately.. I have stopped writing because I just do not feel like it.. but that could just be because I am going to start my period soon.. well that is probably exactly why I feel this way. I just hate when I feel like this because then I do not want to do anything.. I think some of it is depression from being home all the time as well though.. but helping my grandma has kept let me get out every once in a while.. so at least there is that..
But Andrew is always tired when he gets home so he does not always want to go out, or he wants to relax for a while whereas I want to go out and do something right when he gets home.. or on the weekends, when all he wants to do is sleep in.. so it is frustrating. but he is the one with the job, so I try and just do what he wants to do so that he doesnt get mad at me for always wanting to do what I want to do. he does usually do what I want to do, so I try to make sure that he is able to relax when he wants to since all I do is sit and relax all day and it is not fair to him.. so we will see.. I did get a call from one of the temp agencies telling me that they have not forgotten about me and that they were still working on the one job which would be working at a school at a call center with no sales, just helping customers.. they said they thought I would get a call within the next couple of weeks or so, so I am going to try and hold out until I hear from them about that school job until I start looking at bank jobs,. I did apply to two different bank jobs because I am not very hopeful, but since I heard from Sara, I am looking a little higher and feeling a little more hopeful especially since the job that Sara is thinking about really does seem like the perfect job for me.. so here is to hoping!
Next week though.. when I do not have anything to do with my Grandma, time to start writing again.. I wish Jessie would finish the edit so I could see what she thinks and that would help me move on with my story.. but I guess I can just write what I want to write and just go back and redo whatever she thinks I should redo.. I have ideas on how I want to continue what it is that I am working on now, so I think I should go an write that, because I think that will help me when I go back and see what she has to say.. maybe even help me with what I am going to add.. I should ask her about that.. maybe if I bring it up she will do it faster..
alright I suppose that is all for not.. everything else is OK.. The fourth of July party at my parents house was a lot of fun! Andrew's parents came, and they seemed to have a really good time as well.. Jessie was there and I really miss hanging out with her all the time. I wish I was able to do it more. Maybe when I have a job, when I am making more money then I will be able to.. or when she is because then she can afford to take the train more often or even afford to get a car.. but anyways, it was a lot of fun with everyone there and I took lots of pics!
but ok.. time for me to go.. hasta later!