I feel all blah lately.. I have stopped writing because I just do not feel like it.. but that could just be because I am going to start my period soon.. well that is probably exactly why I feel this way. I just hate when I feel like this because then I do not want to do anything.. I think some of it is depression from being home all the time as well though.. but helping my grandma has kept let me get out every once in a while.. so at least there is that..
But Andrew is always tired when he gets home so he does not always want to go out, or he wants to relax for a while whereas I want to go out and do something right when he gets home.. or on the weekends, when all he wants to do is sleep in.. so it is frustrating. but he is the one with the job, so I try and just do what he wants to do so that he doesnt get mad at me for always wanting to do what I want to do. he does usually do what I want to do, so I try to make sure that he is able to relax when he wants to since all I do is sit and relax all day and it is not fair to him.. so we will see.. I did get a call from one of the temp agencies telling me that they have not forgotten about me and that they were still working on the one job which would be working at a school at a call center with no sales, just helping customers.. they said they thought I would get a call within the next couple of weeks or so, so I am going to try and hold out until I hear from them about that school job until I start looking at bank jobs,. I did apply to two different bank jobs because I am not very hopeful, but since I heard from Sara, I am looking a little higher and feeling a little more hopeful especially since the job that Sara is thinking about really does seem like the perfect job for me.. so here is to hoping!
Next week though.. when I do not have anything to do with my Grandma, time to start writing again.. I wish Jessie would finish the edit so I could see what she thinks and that would help me move on with my story.. but I guess I can just write what I want to write and just go back and redo whatever she thinks I should redo.. I have ideas on how I want to continue what it is that I am working on now, so I think I should go an write that, because I think that will help me when I go back and see what she has to say.. maybe even help me with what I am going to add.. I should ask her about that.. maybe if I bring it up she will do it faster..
alright I suppose that is all for not.. everything else is OK.. The fourth of July party at my parents house was a lot of fun! Andrew's parents came, and they seemed to have a really good time as well.. Jessie was there and I really miss hanging out with her all the time. I wish I was able to do it more. Maybe when I have a job, when I am making more money then I will be able to.. or when she is because then she can afford to take the train more often or even afford to get a car.. but anyways, it was a lot of fun with everyone there and I took lots of pics!
but ok.. time for me to go.. hasta later!