I have a feeling that one of these days I am just going to blow up on Andrew about the whole drinking thing.. I almost did on my sister when she was talking to me about it..
because again, why should I have to compromise how I feel and what I stand for? why can't Andrew just stop drinking for me? why do I always have to be the one to change? what, he can't stand up to his friends when I have stood up to everyone my whole life because of this? I don't get it.. why does it always have to be me?
I guess this is God trying to show me how strong I can be.. after Erik, I told myself I wouldn't be with someone who drank, but that is hard to find now and days and I am so happy with Andrew..
but aren't relationships supposed to be a compromise? at least he has finally stopped asking me to drink with him.. I try to joke about it, but everytime I do, I cry a little inside.. because it is not a joke to me..
and Christina thinks I am missing out on something, thinks I could be having more fun.. and Robert thinks I just need to suck it up and go to parties so I can be with Andrew, that I need to get over it.. but I am OK with how I am.. why is that not enough? I don't judge people for drinking, I just don't like it, and I don't think it is a healthy thing.. why am I the one that has to pretend I am OK with it? Why can't Andrew just stop drinking so much? I don't know.. *cries* =(