also... I still can't believe what Brianna did to me.. I really can't.. it was quite possibly the worst thing a "friend" has done to me.. and with no explanation.. I mean, at least with other people they gave me a reason why they couldn't be friends, but this.. "rift" what the fuck is that?! I mean.. seriously.. what the hell happened in Vegas?
ugh I hope she reads this for some reason and feels like shit.. I really hope she does.. I hope she feels like the worst person in the world.. I cried all day for it.. and now I am trying soooo hard not to care... and I don't on most days, but we were supposed to be best friends.. and she wasn't even going to tell me?! she was just hoping our friendship would end?! WTF??!?!? ugh so frustrating.. I already deleted all pics of her from my computer and facebook because I just couldn't see her face anymore.. it made me and still makes me so sad.. I just don't get it!!!! AAARGH! i just want to hit something... I seriously hope she still cries over this and that she beats herself up everyday because of it and Jericho berats her because of it.. ugh.. who does that to people!?

but at least Christmas was amazing this year.. lots of cool gifts! and lots of gift cards.. woo so we got even more stuff with the gift cards! now I am just worried about money.. but hopefully Andrew's parents can help out a little..

and right now I hate BMS.. no one helps me out and yet I am supposed to help everyone else out.. no one helps with the inbox when I am on lunch, so I am constantly delaying my lunch so that I can do the inbox and have it clean before I go on lunch so I don't have 47 messages when I come back.. and yet I am expected to help out on the phones when it is busy.. but when it is busy, does anyone help me? of course not.. jon barely does it when he is the only one here.. and Josh didn't even do everything he was supposed to on Friday.. and I am not even permanent yet!! I am so frustrated at so many things right now