hello again! I know it has been a while, but guess what? I have a new job finally! yay! so far it is really boring but that is OK because it is stress free and only about 5 mins away from my house.. how much better can that get? I mean.. seriously? I really do not feel like going into an explanation as to what I do, but I work with the trustees at BMS.. =) that is enough.. heh I have explained it to many times to so many different people, that I just don't wanna do it on here.. I know what I do and I don't need to read about it later!
but yeah it is nice.. and I get paid really well and every week! in fact, I get paid tomorrow, so what I did was upgrade my ipod finally! so now I have a 32 gig and I can finally put all the songs and apps I want on it! woo! since this check tomorrow is just an extra check, I decided to splurge on myself for once.. I hardly ever do that and the last time was 2 years ago (not counting clothes and groceries.. or putting stuff on a credit card. heh) so I think it was about time!
and now with every paycheck, if I can afford it, I am going to put 100 dollars aside and then at the end of the month, I am going to make a 400 dollar payment on my joint card with Andrew.. that should help to pay it off pretty quickly.. lets see.. we owe about 4700.. divided by 400.. um.. that is about 11 payments.. and if I can do more, that will have it paid off even faster! so yay! then I can work on my other card.. and, my car will be paid off in a year, so I can make even larger payments! awesome! heh if I have any extra, I am going to try and start making principle only payments on my car so that I can maybe pay that off faster.. or maybe in oct, when I get 5 checks instead of 4, I will take that extra check and just put all or most of it on the car.. that is like, 2 months worth of payments right there all on principle.. that would be sweet!
so we will see! with michael moving out, I may not even be able to do any of this because I wil be paying more in rent, but who knows.. I can at least make like 200 dollar payments instead of only 100 or something.. =) but again it does all depend cuz Michael might be moving out sooner than we thought, so we may have to pay more in rent.. that would be nice for Andrew and I to have our own place tho.. but who knows! Michael needs to do this, I just hope he will be OK on his own unlike last time.. sigh..
anyways! I should go and get back to work or something.. heh

So tuesday is my birthday.. yay! I had a birthday weekend though, so on my actual birthday I don't think much is going to happen.. heh but that is OK! I had a great party yesterday with lots of people and today was a family gathering.. we went to chilis and then to my parents house for cake and gifts..
but yesterday there were about 20 people total that come and went.. we were down by the grill and we had lots of chips and dips and other snacks, then Andrew and Michael bbq'd the hamburgers, hotdogs and hot links.. they were really good! And it was just so much fun.. I was constantly walking around, making sure I was talking to everyone and that everyone was having a good time.. I hope I didn't ignore anyone too much, but I tried to sit down and talk with everyone a few different times.. it seemed like everyone had a good time though, so yay for that! I got an Orchid! Jason and Rachel got it for me.. it is awesome! And I got a target and starbucks gift card, a cool wind chime, DARIA!!!!!!!!! some movie tickets.. and.. oh yeah! A really cool statue of a girl holding some cats.. it is really pretty! yay for cats! heh
and then today was my family! I love Chilis, so I was happy to go there.. then my mom made me an angel food cake with whipped cream and strawberries and all sorts of stuff.. it was delicious! Oh and Andrew got me an ice cream cake and it had a Batman toy on it.. awesome.. haha it is a really yummy cake too! And it had my name on it.. XD
let's see.. and then today, for gifts.. I got a 60 gift card to Amazon, 50 for target.. 50 dollar check.. 35 in cash, a 25 gas card, 50 for h&m, and 35 in cash.. and a hands free electronic can opener.. and more movie tickets! So I got lots of cool stuff! All in all a great birthday! Andrew said he is going to try and take me out on my actual bday, but I dunno. he has already spent a lot of money so I don't know that he will have enough money, so no big deal! =)

alright that is all for now! what a great weekend.. yay for birthdays! heh

I feel all blah lately.. I have stopped writing because I just do not feel like it.. but that could just be because I am going to start my period soon.. well that is probably exactly why I feel this way. I just hate when I feel like this because then I do not want to do anything.. I think some of it is depression from being home all the time as well though.. but helping my grandma has kept let me get out every once in a while.. so at least there is that..
But Andrew is always tired when he gets home so he does not always want to go out, or he wants to relax for a while whereas I want to go out and do something right when he gets home.. or on the weekends, when all he wants to do is sleep in.. so it is frustrating. but he is the one with the job, so I try and just do what he wants to do so that he doesnt get mad at me for always wanting to do what I want to do. he does usually do what I want to do, so I try to make sure that he is able to relax when he wants to since all I do is sit and relax all day and it is not fair to him.. so we will see.. I did get a call from one of the temp agencies telling me that they have not forgotten about me and that they were still working on the one job which would be working at a school at a call center with no sales, just helping customers.. they said they thought I would get a call within the next couple of weeks or so, so I am going to try and hold out until I hear from them about that school job until I start looking at bank jobs,. I did apply to two different bank jobs because I am not very hopeful, but since I heard from Sara, I am looking a little higher and feeling a little more hopeful especially since the job that Sara is thinking about really does seem like the perfect job for me.. so here is to hoping!
Next week though.. when I do not have anything to do with my Grandma, time to start writing again.. I wish Jessie would finish the edit so I could see what she thinks and that would help me move on with my story.. but I guess I can just write what I want to write and just go back and redo whatever she thinks I should redo.. I have ideas on how I want to continue what it is that I am working on now, so I think I should go an write that, because I think that will help me when I go back and see what she has to say.. maybe even help me with what I am going to add.. I should ask her about that.. maybe if I bring it up she will do it faster..
alright I suppose that is all for not.. everything else is OK.. The fourth of July party at my parents house was a lot of fun! Andrew's parents came, and they seemed to have a really good time as well.. Jessie was there and I really miss hanging out with her all the time. I wish I was able to do it more. Maybe when I have a job, when I am making more money then I will be able to.. or when she is because then she can afford to take the train more often or even afford to get a car.. but anyways, it was a lot of fun with everyone there and I took lots of pics!
but ok.. time for me to go.. hasta later!

ugh I really hope I do not have diabetes.. but I am starting to show the signs of it.. tho that could just be because I do not have my levoxyl.. I am hoping that is all it is.. but I may hafta go to urgent care and use the cc again just to find out.. I did give up on candy mainly, but I still eat lots of sugar.. but I did start exercising.. soo we shall see I suppose.. my ear is still bothering me so I have to go for that as well becuase it is starting to get worse.. I am just falling apart aren't I.. sigh..
well I have decided that after a month if I still do not have a job, I will go back to banking.. ugh I really do not want to! I hate banking so much and that is the last thing I want to do.. but what else am I going to do if those are the only jobs I am being offered? There really is nothing else for me it seems.. bah
all the other positions I am applying for I have been rejected saying I do not have enough experience.. what other experience do i need? geez.. well oh well we will see what happens.. I am just trying as long as I can to wait as long as I can to get a job that I actually want.. that I wont mind going into work every day.. sigh..

oh I went into Goodwill the other day to bring Andrew lunch, and David was there.. ugh.. I got so flustered that I didn't even stay to chat with Andrew too long.. I was just like, "David is here, so I am going to go now.." I was afraid of running into him and speaking my mind, so I just left quickly..

and now Andrew is off to vegas.. sigh.. I know he has to have his time with his friends, but ugh.. I hate to think of him over there.. and it's like, I trust him but always, in the back of my mind, because of all I have been through, there is that nagging feeling tht something bad is going to happen or he is going to get into some sort of trouble.. and plus the drinking.. I hate the drinking.. =P I don't understand why he has to.. why anyone feels they have to.. it is stupid.. sigh.. oh well.. there is not a whole lot that I can do about it.. I know he likes to drink and that bothers me so much! at least he has calmed down on the drinking and he is not as into it as he used to be but I still don't like it.. I have calmed down on the beers tho, I don't mind those nearly as much as I used to.. it is the hard alcohol that bothers me and makes me worried.. sigh oh well..
alright.. I am going to go now.. I am tired of typing.. no work on my story this week even tho I had been planning on it.. not sure why I didn't, but next week is the week!

ugh I feel sick and it is stupid.. =P I have not wanted to do anything today.. sigh.. I think it is cuz I do not have my levoxyl anymore, because when you have problems with your thyroid you are usually tired.. and I do not have medicine to regulate it anymore.. that is what sucks about not having a job.. no insurance.. stupid.. but tomorrow I Have an interview finally, so we will see where that goes..
it is a call center job that pays well, but it has sales so I dunno.. but luckily it is in the morning, so I Can get it over with and decide if I want it or not! and tomorrow I need to write more of my novel so I can throw the old one away.. I just wrote some notes on it and it is taking up space and it is bothering me!
and now every time I exercise I feel sick.. I think it is also because I do not have my medicine.. sigh.. this sucks.. I don't want to go to urgent care, I really do not want to put anymore on the credit card, so I just have to suck it up until I can get a job and get insurance!
anyways.. I hafta start dinner now.. so until next time!

well just applied to two writing jobs, so we will see what happens! they were both kinda technical writing jobs, but at least I would be writing! I do not know if I have the experience either of the jobs is looking for, but who knows.. maybe I will get lucky!
and now I am off to have lunch with my mom and my gma.. that should be fun.. maybe.. hopefully my grandma will give me some gas money for taking her around but I doubt it.. oh well.. I am going to use the citibank card so I can get that 50 dollar check and put it towards the next payment.. go me!
bah I have a headache.. I wonder if this exercising really is all that good for me.. sigh.. it doesn't even seem to be helping much.. I am so gross.. bah

bah as always, my mom is the voice of reason, which is lame! heh but we talked about me going up North and she kept saying how what a bad idea it was.. And I knew it was, but I want to go so badly.. but I decided to hold the trip off until maybe July, when I should get some birthday money or something.. and then maybe I can stay a little longer, if I still don't have a job by then!
I feel bad cuz my friends were all excited, but what can you do.. I don't have a job, don't have steady income.. I mean, I have unemployment, but that is just barely paying for bills, so I don't really rely on it too much for other things.. but oh well!
Now I will go and help Jessie pack instead, so that should be fun.. I am so glad we have kinda renewed our friendship again.. I hate it when she gets in those bad moods, because then she is hard to talk too and she is just not my Jessie anymore! But she seems to be doing better, and I think because we have been hanging out a lot lately too, that has helped.. so yay for that!
today I need to clean the bathroom and then try and beat a boss on Final Fantasy 13.. stupid boss fight! I have tried so many times!!! sigh.. ha oh well! It is not the end of the world.. =)
tomorrow, I go to lunch with my mom and my gma, so I think I will write before and after that.. get more of my story done.. I am up to page 32! I wonder if I can at least double that by the time I go to school.. I am going to try! go me!